Ramble

If I were to be honest to myself, the world is spinning too fast.

Life has been good,

 it is good. Even with all of the mourning, God has been kind. 

He’s always been. He still is.

Am I ungrateful? Or am I a sinner?

I know I am.

It’s just that

Is life worth living for?

So many people all around me, so many voices, too many.

It gets lonely.

I feel distant.

Where are you, Mom? I miss you.

The only person I know who would be there no matter what,

now I don’t even know how I lost her.

Everything feels different.

I thought he’ll be here.

But here I am.